Our Bond is Eternal

The following is a poem that my cousin Alex wrote for me a few days after the passing of Malaysia. I read the poem at a service of remembrance for families who have lost babies of their own.

Our bond is eternal and can never be replaced

Waiting for the day I'll see your beautiful little face

You will always be the love of my life

We can visit each other in my dreams.

I will cherish the memories we have already made

My love for you will never fade. 

I will always be your mother,

That will never change.

My darling Malaysia May, 

I pray you will watch over me always.

For you will always have my heart and

No one will ever take your place

Then, now, and forever you will always be 

My precious daughter who stole my heart from me.

Give my love to grandma, 

Listen to her always.

This is not a good bye, more like a hello

Because I will never let you go

11 Months

Today marks the 11 month anniversary of my daughter's birth. I try to write my progress on this blog every month so that I can measure my growth. It is one of the rituals that I do every month to acknowledge my daughter's life. I was a little bit hard on myself for not writing a post OR writing a letter to Malaysia for her 10 month anniversary. It was not as though I forgot about her birthday. I remembered it last month just as I do every month. It is hard to forget the most significant date of my life. I simply did not get around to writing her last month. Today I made sure that she had pink roses beside her urn and that I wrote a letter to her. The letters that I write to Malaysia are my way of keeping the bond that I have with her strong.